Day 15: Heartbroken
If you are struggling with something right now in your life, take my hand. Together, we can persevere. Together, we can overcome our fears. Together, we can become stronger.
Yesterday hurt. That was one of the most painful experiences of my life. I asked God why so many times. I was called back into diving a year ago. I won nationals. I qualified the Olympic quota spot at Worlds. I qualified for the Olympics. I made it this far. Just to have it end with a crushing heartbreak. I poured my heart and my soul into training. I sacrificed so much. I’ve asked myself what I did to deserve this. I have walked diligently and faithfully every step of the way. It doesn’t feel fair.
Over the past 24 hours, I’ve cried, and I have been angry. I’ve asked, “why would a good God let me make it all the way to this stage just to allow me to get crushed in front of the world?” This is hard, and my faith has been tested.
Despite the fact that my competition did not go the way I wanted it to, I set out on this journey to impact and inspire in everything I do, and I truly believe that I have carried out that mission to the best of my abilities. I have worked so hard to have an impact beyond myself and beyond these games, and I have tried to get as many children in Kenya sponsored as I can. And I have fought with my whole heart, and there is no shame in that.
And even though I haven’t gotten as many children sponsored as I want. And even though my competition didn't go the way I wanted. And even though I feel like the world is trying to tear me down piece by piece and leave me shattered, I will keep my chin up because I know that my value and worth come from God. Genesis 50:20 - “You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done…” I do not know God’s plan. I do not know why he would allow this, but I must continue persevering, and I hope that my willingness to persevere and fight on can inspire those around me.
I have been blessed to be surrounded by an amazing community of people who have held me and reminded me of my value and worth. I am so thankful for everyone who has prayed and sent me kind words of encouragement. Your kindness and support have given me strength.
Life is full of painful moments. Life is full of losses, but true character is shown through how you get back up. And I will get back up. If you are struggling with something right now in your life, take my hand, and together, we can fight. Together, we can persevere. Together, we can overcome our fears. Together, we can shine a light on our shameful moments and recognize that they don’t have power over us. Together, we can become stronger.
Every job you do, every thing that knocks you down, every tear you cry, every wound inflicted upon you - each of these shapes who you are and prepares you for who you are becoming. You didn't quit competing yesterday, and you are a champion in life. My last year has been a tough one, but seeing you go on after your setback gives me hope and resolve to continue doing in the face of adversity. You are my Olympic hero from Paris 2024. Go do more great things!
Amazing story, Alison! You’re a shining a brighter light through a darker time than you could ever imagine. Your comments are posted on my office door as an encouragement and reminder to my students. Thank you for using your platform to glorify Christ.